Limbo

*sigh*

I have a decission to make.

There is one subject that I'm just not 'happy' about. It's a great subject but I just can't get enthisastic about it. Maybe because the Lecture has made it very clear that she's going to be 'full on' about spelling and puncuation in our assignments.... ARGH!! [that's enough to have me running in fear] ... or maybe it's to do with the fact that I missed the first tute because I couldn't find the room [some how I had down 401 instead of 410 - ARGH!!] So I was already on the back foot and then this week Monday was a bad day so I stayed home hideing under the sheets so... I missed my secound tute! [I had actualy talked myself into just dropping the subject on monday as I wasn't happy with it and felt so 'lost' about it. We are meant to be doing group work -another thing to have me running in fear I guess]....

So anyways - today is lecture day. [have two today] and I just don't want to go to the first one. I *really* just want to drop it. But then... I still have to do it later on and maybe I'm just 'giving' in if I drop it now there is no *REAL* reason for me to drop it at all - just that I'm chicken :)

I'd love to drop it and work hard on my other subjects but then I know I proabley will 'relax' more on them.

ARGH I hate my moods sometimes. Actually you know what - I think I'm going to start keeping a record of what I do each day and how I feel. I wonder what triggers are behind all the moods. I know Monday's was becasues I spent the weekend at mum and dad's and I always hate comeing back home after that.... going from being with people who love me and are there for me back to being alone always is enough to drop me in the gutter. but todays one I don't understand....

So what's my decision you wonder - not to make one that's it. To just ride this mood out for now.

So now seeing as I have been depressive - here's a layout to make you all smile.

{credits: Dani Mogstads Sweet Treat paper and emblishment pack from www.designbydani.com }