Breaking My Silence

"shheeee's back" [said to the tune of the catch phrase from "Poltergeist"]

A few things to fill you all in on

At the start of the week I was filled with so much anger and just plan 'peved off' at a whole list of things... that I was not in a good 'friendly/normal' mood and I could not type out a 'rational' post as I everytime I sat to write something my rage just wanted to be let out and I know the damage that could bring if I gave it it's own voice [although I know one person did catch me out on a post that got posted and then pulled ROFLMAO]So instead I opted for the "If you have nothing nice to say then don't say anything" - hence my silence [and that was kind of funny in because one of the things I was peeved off about was the 'silence' treatment that I had been given by some certain people - but lets not go into that - rage still simering here].

I was also lucky around this time that the net at home packed it's bags and went on a holiday -maybe it too was sick of my rageing?!?! So hence why there hasn't even been more "Slience part x" posts...

End of the week saw things 'calm' down a little emotinaly. There are still things to be sorted, changed, dealt with and over come... but I feel as if finnaly I'm free to actually be angry and to just work that out [for some time I have not let myself feel as if I have a 'right' to be angry - that my own feelings where wrong]. There is a lot of 'pain' I need to clear out and I think the only way to do that is let myself be selfish and just be god damn angry about it all. Then when that is done. Maybe I won't hurt as much as I have - maybe then this black cloud will pack it's bags too and go on a holiday - a far far far away holiday]

And in less dramatic news - BACK TO UNI NEXT WEEK!! argh!!! So looking forward to it! This semester I delibartely have only picked fun and exciting subjects - ie no PR subjects this semester - totaly writing subjects! Ohh to be creative again , to read to write to study and learn. Maybe I'll find my writing mojo again - haven't writen a [completed]story since well - a year! Not since I did short Story and Got my 7 [HD].

So while life is still for the most part pile of dog poo - it's not as smelly a pile of dog poo as it was a few months ago...

hehe ;)